a babe diary^^

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

she is a bitch~

pass few days
my housemate move out w/out informing us..and avoid to talk to us face to face with her moving plan too..
and its so well plan for her..
she told us she already found a replacement for next month..and this is wat she supposed to do too...its no problem for u to move out and found a replacement..
today v only realize its was a track of her~f**king bitch..
the management person she said who already found someone for replacement..
and she told us she nvr see her and dont know that she already move out too..what a fool~~
before that our house was a mess
and can u imagine she only cleaning for once or twice in one year?
This is true...and she nvr accept when v r complaining...v hv right to complain u such a rubbish bin~~!!that is also another reason y everyone try to ignore her...even her laundry smell ugly every moment when she hanging dry...it was so cool to YOU serena sitompul~~!!wat u trying to show all the world im talking bad stuff behind u?do u think u r thre right 1?u are smart to do all this irresponsible trouble to us...nth else to tell u...and wait for ur karma~~!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

the cutest smile ever

guess who?haha..
so pity always take pic alone with nice nice view kan?
here u are~~ im taking pic wt u..when u r in LOndon~~
happy?haha..
**LOL**

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Into the mirror I peered this morning, but my eyes could only see,
Not the reflection that was there, but what once was me:
A young girl whose face had no crow’s feet or lines;
Embracing hopes for a bright future of a grand design;
A smile that had not yet known heartbreak’s painful sting;
Green eyes that twinkled with childish mischief and daring;
Locks of darkest brown, extremely thick and difficult to brush;
Glowing cheeks that were easily enticed to a rosy blush;
Alabaster colored skin, velvety soft and silken smooth,
And full sensitive lips, yearning with kisses to tempt and soothe.
All manner of hopes and dreams were plainly written on that young face,
But time has changed it with events no vanishing cream can erase.
Into the mirror I peered once again, but this time the reflection was clear;
The young woman’s face of years ago had changed, was no longer here.
Worry worked its black magic, creating countless lines that deeply creased;
Many of the youthful dreams unfilled, so the anticipatory look ceased;
The smile is slighter, shy and timid from heartbreak’s painful stings;
Salty tears have left marks from the most painful parts of daily living;
Eyes, still mischievous, now peek from behind oval spectacles;
Secretly hiding away from modern life’s pains and cruel prickles;
Gray and all too quickly thinning of those once curly locks;
My hair now requires dye from a store, manmade color from a box;
Lips that have tempted and soothed but still yearn for more;
Cheeks that continue to blush, but less frequently than before;
And the drying alabaster skin that whispers of life’s battles.
All the changes that are here to stay speak in unsaid tattles
Of a face that has known despair and joy, known laughter and tears,
Now clearly reflecting a woman who has lived life for all her years.
But behind the face I now have, hiding beneath aged skin, that young girl still thrives,

For my youthful spirit lives within, and despite age, the young girl survives.

well..this is probably not my writing~~haha..its from an old folk
no reason why..recently i love to listen to old folks..
they are so real as kids but not as innocent as kids..
its that cause we are middle between kids and old folks
that's y we lost our realness and innocence?
when we born we got innocence and when we old what we left just surface happiness?
For me...
their smile more peaceful than whomever
their words more meaningful to whomever
their wrinkles telling people stories that they had went through
everything is keep on changing older and older every single minute
only we create our memories newer and newer in our mind
everyone might know the way to work hard for their own future
when meet failure we try to hide ourself from real life
However we only can stand up and get back to the track...

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

yesterday's shadow,filling tomorrow's point of view

I drop yesterday's shadows
like so many falling stones
I can't deny the truth no more
and allow the eyes of my life

to readjust to my future

Sunday, June 17, 2007

winner of EQ

its too childish..
go ahead to shout out more
i will just feel

u
are
mad
~
~
!!
cause
i wanna be on top~~!!
winner of EQ~~!!
haha~~

silent night~~

big gurl don't cry...im crying cause im not yet a big gurl~
its was an awful night sorry for all my friends
suddenly feel lost..n pop out lots ?? and asking reason y in my mind...
i nvr felt that for a long while...its hurt its proof that u r nothing..
YOU ARE OUT..!!!
a meant world that v r living..
and telling myself
mayb life rewards effort not excuse~~
successful ppl failed more often
they plant more seeds.
go go n move move to wat u want now everyone..
or u regret later~~

Thursday, June 14, 2007

under the shadow...

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

a day, a lesson, a reminder

Past few days i was so so damn busy...
lack of rest lack of food (might be a good thing for my weight? haha)lack of time...
was so panic...but i cant fall asleep when i hv time for it...
btw thanks for helping me...i did treat u guys meal right?haha...
huh..and also went to a place that so many people been forgotten or mayb ignore...
there not welcoming you with your money but what they only want is ur heart...
heart to only care of them talk to them...
a place that waiting death?
its that a direct end to send them there?
when i first saw those old folk there thru there smile the laughter...
my mind pop up with...
that's all they can do even they want more?
how if is me stay over there?
its not a kindergarden is not a nursery for a kids that beginning of their social life
but its a old folk house that they scared to stay for the rest of their life...
i even didn't talk much didn't know them much...she keep smiling to me...
she was 92yrs old...haha...how she really feel huh?
her positiveness her smile i learn lots just only few hours there...
there are still so many thing cant buy with money....
she told me:'you good ar good ar..haha...have heart hor don blame ah ma oh i dunno how to speak mandarin and i always learning'
she was trying to get closer to me cause i don really how to speak her language...
i admire her attitude her positiveness the way she educated ppl...
haha...i will always miss you....even u r not my real ah ma...
i feel touched...i feel appreciate time and people...
no regret when something happened but the attitude and time you did spent...

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

when it will be..it will be...

every morning...

sun rise...

opened eyes full of unwillingness...

take shower...

make up...

went to class...

facing the same lecturer for whole day...well..u r good lecturer haha....i didnt mean u~~just huh..bored~~!!

my heart my soul still in the class?was thinking of yoU?You?yOu?or YOU?listening to neng bu neng...strong feeling came out from my mind...what was turning around around around in my mind...I shouldn't think this now...lots more stuff i need to concentrate much more important than this...but why now?

There is no why..v r normal human being...v r always surrender towards emotional...

someone choose to do something crazy to fullfilll their emptyness...

someone able calm down and think probably...

someone choose to be drunk...

i choosen to talk nonsense and laugh out with my sillyness way...

btw...

im still always thinking the same thing...

haha..what to do?!peg ar peg...always tell herself when it be then it will be...

think too much peg~~!